Frankly right now, things in life are rocky. Some things are uncertain and Kurtis and I are doing our best to focus on our family and take care of what the good Lord has given us. With that being said, I was thinking as I was driving tonight, what is one word I would use for each of my kids? What would I use to sum up what they mean to me....so here it is:
To Sam: "NEW" Everything with Sam was new, the first, a great way to experience everything for the first time, like I was a kid all over again.
To Isabel: "DIFFERENT" Everything with Izzy was different, whether it was a boy/girl thing, a first child/second child thing, or just plain watch you be different from your brother thing.
To Kalen: "FUNNY" Everything with Kal is funny, even when it's a serious thing. Kal does everything his own way, with no fear, watching his older siblings and figuring out how to do it himself even if he is 2-4 years younger.
To Zeke: "BITTERSWEET" Everything with Zeke is sweet; he's just a doll, lights up my day with a simple smile and chubby cheeks. But it is bitter b/c he's the youngest. As Zekey grows from a baby into a little boy, I miss the experiences of fresh, new little spirits in my home. I miss that newborn feeling.
Zeke is the reason I thought of this tonight. Things are on the fritz, money is tight, the future is uncertain and I look back in the van and see this little chubby-cheeked, only a few teeth smile, wondering wide eyes taking everything in and I'm so thankful for my children. SO THANKFUL for my life and the little people entrusted into my care. This is my note to my children. You make everything worth it....really, everything. It sounds like a cliche and it is BUT it is also true!